rkymtnmusings
semi-daily journal of my thoughts and feelings(hopefully) On my life living in the Rocky Mountains... . The current mood of rockiemtnman@yahoo.com at www.imood.com


12/28/2003  

Okay.. so I am apparently back in the saddle, for whatever That is worth...
I took my soon-to-be 19 year-old daughter to the family doc's Friday. I didn't find out until the last moment that she was going for an exam to see-amoung other things- whether or not she was pregnant...so I looked at the pictures of a two-month-old copy of People magazine whilst I commiserated about how to "respond" to "our" predicament...i.e. the possibility of her being pregnant. It took me about half a second to reach that rock solid, no-doubt-about-it, gut knowledge that, no matter how mad she makes me sometimes, no matter that I sometimes see her as shallow, selfish, and immature...the bottom line was this: That I would be there for her, loving and supportive of her and the choices she would have to make..with some reservation give my opinion or suggestions...let her know that I stood with her to face this life-changing event. And...she initially tested negative... missing her period for two months may be related to a thyroid condition. I did let Katie know that i felt that just having the thought of a pregnancy, especially if you are "estranged" from the potential father (oh, yes I insisted on this !!!)was a huge weight-one that no one should have to carry themself...
I just realized that my love for my children...and consequentially thier happiness and safety is paramount to all else...
I guess what promoted this train of thought was pondering the old Arabian custom of shame-based killings...that more often than not, if a woman is raped and becomes pregnant that she faces death, the "logic " being that she must have done something provocative to cause the man to lose control and rape the woman-and so therefore has shamed the family, and must pay with her life...
It's just scary that there could be such a huge void in human thinking...
....more...later...

posted by David | 12/28/2003 03:50:00 PM
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